These are highly praised friendship in which I believe. These fucking friendship so I made an ASS like this.
Always, it's also in this way that ended. Now, it's only my fault, right?
Hypocrites. All you two.
First, because that person never dealt me with "gloves" as you say. Instead, he'd hate me for all the period which she stay with him!
And, after six month....I can't be not cold whit him...and they. 
Isn' t normal that we joke with others people in this way!  We spent many days to discuss with them and their attitudes. And now? What would you like? All smiles and hugs? No. You been wrong. I'm not so false.
If yesterday and the other day, I was so acidic its because I can't be able to hiding my feelings.

Open your eyes. Isn't egocentrism or victimism as you call it.

Ps. Sorry for bad English, but I'm so angry and I would remind you that I don't know so well this damned language!

Ok….or you took my head and emptying it from these kind of thoughts or I’ll going to be crazy.
They destroying me so slowly.

I’m sick.
In every sense that you would interpret it.
I need to scream all that I’ve inside me, stopping to think or to pity myself in order to understand if that is what I am or it’s only the moment’s product.
I wish I could pour all my thoughts into a box and give it at someone that can help me to undo the tangle or definitely close it, seal it and throw it into the sea.
Can vanish it. U.u

I'm scared. These things can’t be simply said.
It’s would involve too many risks.
Before, I would be sure.
I must understand.
I must understand if am I that girl.

Strange, right? How I starting again to write what I feel only in an useless journal with English language and not on my Italian blog.
Probably because, from a part, I know that only a few people have the links of those account and because…I don’t know.
If I knew very well German or Japanese, I’d write with  those languages.

I’m hiding myself again.
 
Moreover, my English is too bad. Reading again the other updates, I’m being aware that there were several errors and certainly, also in this post there are. Hope that you can forgive me (or correct me!).

I want again those three days passed in Germany.

And I want those damned packs.
Because aren’t arrived yet and I’m very nervous.
Already, if they have lost them, I swear that I get angry.
Shit stupid post office.  

Name: Amalia or aethereally! (<- I love this nick)
Age: soon 19
Height: emhemh…*coughs*
Weight: about 1,68 m
Haircolor: more time ago, I was blonde. Now…a mix of brown, red and blonde! xD
Shoesize: 41
Piercings: 4 (3 on right ear, 1 on left)
Tattoos: Nope at moment.
Are you in love with someone: Aoi it’s valid as answer? *laugh*
Do you wish you lived somewhere else: In Japan or in Germany. Or…however, whichever place except Italy-
Do others think you’re attractive: none…
Do you drink: Sometimes.
Do you take drugs: None.
Do you smoke: Nope.
Do you take snuff: Nope.
What shampoo do you use: At moment, cream&strawberry fragrance.
Which perfume do you use: Various, but I love “Poison” of Dior.
What are you scared of: Failing as a university student. Failing to learn Japanese.

FAVORITE...
Food: Japan cousine
Drink: the.
Song right now: cassis ~ the GazettE
Thing to do: studying, writing, reading, listening music…more things!
Sport: skating on ice and motorbikes.
Clothes: black jeans and my lovely shirt of GazettE’s concert <3.
Movie: Moon Child, Chocolate, Tim Burton’s movie.
Car: I prefer motorbikes
Room in your house: nobody in particular.
Kind of music: Jrock, OSTs, piano ballads.
Month: December.

Have you ever...
Cried over a girl: probably…

Cried over a boy: yeah!
Lied to someone: yep
Been in a fight: yes…
Been called by the police: none!

Amount...
How many times have you been in love: I’m never been in truly love, but…more times I’m infatuated by other people.
How many times have your heart broken: Oh, more time!
Heart been broken because of you: Probabily…one…max two people!
Girls you’ve kissed: on the lips, three or four. But it’s for funning.
Scars on your body: too many!
Will be fun: learning Japanese.
Won’t be fun: umh…probably the university’s exam!
Save for: J-rock’concert, Japan and Deutschland.
Wait for: turned in Germany.
Longing: new single of Gaze.
What you eat on a sandwich: nothing

Latest...
Book you read: I’m reading “Tonio Krögher” by Thomas Mann.
person you got mail from: Aurys.
person you got sms from: Frà.
thing you bought: mh, the latest, I think was the shirt of GazettE.
food you ate: ice-cream.
time you got up: 11.35
Do you like to fight: not in particular.
What will you do tonight: probably, nothing. -.-
Are you serious: yeah!
What are you allergic towards: my brother-_-
Where do you have pain: ankles
Do you use hairspray: None.

Can you stand on your hands: more time ago…I can…now, I think no! xD
Favorite series:  D. House, Greys’ Anatomy, Buffy.
Salt or Sugar: Salt
Are you happy: not ever.
What do you dance to: I don't!
Can you sing: Emh…I can’t.
More worth than gold: my iPod and…the original Cd of the GazettE!
Country you want to visit: Japan, German, France, Northern Ireland, Switzerland, Oland.  
Clothes you sleep in: my big and large pyjama
Do you want to get married: nein.
You want to get kids: probably, but I’m not sure!
Do you drive a car: yes!
Do you like to have people around you:  Only if those are the people that I would around me!
Have you been in love with someone you’re not allowed to be in love with: obviously! Ç___ç
Are you single now: yes!
Who have you taken this meme from:  don’t remember where I take this! Probably on a LJ’s community!